Not All Who Wander Are Lost

Not All Who Wander Are Lost
January 17, 2017 - Florida Keys

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Emotions

I'm feeling really emotional today! I really don't understand it. I'm so happy and excited to start living our dream, but I think I've just been on overload this week.

Kevin doing the camphosting thing, and I've been home trying to tie up the loose ends. I'm not complaining. It's just rather overwhelming right now.

I have this nagging feeling of guilt that doesn't want to go away. I think it's because people look at me like I'm nuts when I tell them what we're doing. Many tell me they are envious. Today someone told me he wishes he was as brave as we are. But, that look they give me tells me they think we're nuts. It's the fear thing. What if it doesn't work out. Are we crazy and selfish? I don't think so, but that little nagging voice is still there.

What's really dragging me down is these last days at work. The nasty witch I work with is really ratcheting up her nastiness. She is super masterful at being snide. Her comments are never directly made to me, but to others when she is sure I can hear them. She is the most masterful manipulative, back-stabbing, evil person I think I have ever encountered. I'm not kidding!! I have tried to be positive and not let it bother me. Being subjected to her torture daily just wears me down sometimes. But, only 2 days left. I can do it! I wish I was the kind of person who could just say "kiss my @#!" but it's just not in me. Once I'm out that door, I will never think of her again!!! I have wasted too much time dwelling on her evil ways. I'm done with that!!!

I had a question in the comments yesterday from some readers about the car we sold. We had sold a car on Craigslist and the person paid for it in full and told us he would come with a friend to pick it up the next day which was a Sunday. He never called Sunday, and when I called him, I got voicemail. Well, he called late Monday and said he had misplaced his cell phone. We finally met him Tuesday night and did the trade.

Our reader Merikay asked about the estate sale person. Once we are all done with that, I'll write a detailed entry about how that went. It has not been an easy experience, but I think it will work out.

Thanks for your kind comments. I really do appreciate hearing from all of you!

2 comments:

  1. We know that overwhelmed feeling well!

    It has happened to us many times.

    On the other side of overwhelmed though we always find that thing we have done all of this for.

    Living our life on our terms -- enjoying knowing that we are making our own way for our reasons.

    I often wonder when someone makes an uninformed comment about our life style how they feel about the alternative they have chosen.

    We don't judge those that judge us -- we know what and why we are doing what we are. They do not.

    So hang in there!

    It sounds like your work situation alone is enough to get out of there and to find the peace and tranquility that really does exist when you live your life by purpose rather than the circumstances the world would have you live it by.

    Ken and Nanette

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  2. I swing back and forth constantly. Sometimes I just feel scared, but most of the time I'm confident that this is the right thing to be doing in this time and place.

    Remember, if it doesn't work out, you can always resettle somewhere.

    A road not taken is an adventure missed!

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